~FrIEndZ~ a colourful friendship

Friendz...Hmm..... you know, sometimes, i do hate my friends. Even my bestfriends. Sometimes, i hate them till i wanna kill myself. Its like, sometimes, they make new friends, and then forget about me. I always remember their birthday, try my best to get them a birthday present, suprise present and all that. But no one evur remembers my birthday.... its kind of sad.... I try my best to help them in all their problems, homework and love problems and stuff like that....But everytime when i need them, they bail on me... onli some friends stay there for me.... Some friends even blurt out my secrets....WHy??? it feels as if my most great friends are suddenly becoming all boys.... why???? Can anybody tell me??Why do i suddenly feel that i cannot trust anyone now??